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March 3, 2016 by Abby and Alex Rodriguez

We are on the fringe of things. Always.

Thank you to Mr. FW Boreham, who always has a way of making sense to my thoughts.

The day has come.  Aside from my wedding day, this day has become one of the most anticipated days, thus far, in the entirety of my life, our lives.  March 2, 2016, Alex and I became licensed foster to adopt parents.  The feeling is hard to explain and I’ll leave it up to Mr. Boreham.  He mentions in his essay “Rainbow Gold” the feeling it kind of like looking into a midnight (desert) sky full of stars, as far as the eye can see, with a 6 year old boy asking a sea of questions:

“Who made the stars?”

“What do they hang by”

“Who lights them?”

“Where do they go during the day?”

“When they fall, who picks them up?”

“Do new stars take the place of fallen ones?”

“And, if not, won’t the stars be soon gone?”

And so on and so on into infinity…

We are only on the fringe of things. Always.

“Why did God choose this path for us?”

“Where will our baby come from?”

“Is our baby even born yet?”

“Is our baby safe?”

“Will he/she live a lifetime of developmental and health issues due to trauma?”

“Is there redemption in trauma, can it be reversed?”

“Will we be able to say ‘no’ to a placement?”

“Are we really equipped for this?”

And so on and so on into infinity…

The unknown can drive a person crazy.

We’re simply sitting on the edge of all this, on the fringe. The anticipation in our hearts, waiting for that phone call that will change our lives forever, is a feeling that is impossible to explain.

We’ll always, always be on the fringe of things. All of us, always.

“We have but kissed the hem of the garment of God!”

I will never know what the future holds for our family or for the baby we have yet to meet, but there is one unknown that I will always take comfort in and that is:

“We are but the outer fringe of His works; how faint the whisper we hear of Him! Who then can understand the thunder of His power?” Job 27:4

God is in control. And I am okay with that. The best is yet to come and it will be worth it. For now, we wait.

 

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2 thoughts on “Licensed .

  1. Brenda Thomas says:

    Precious words, honey! You know dad and I are praying for you and Alex.

  2. So beautiful and exciting!!!

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